Saturday, April 21, 2007

A much needed break

The Lord has given Kristal and I yet another wonderful day. Although there was no new good news, there was also no new bad news. Right now where we stand, no news is not better than good news, but it is still pleasant. We have been through so much since Sunday that a day of no new news provides us a needed break. Kristal and I got to spend quite a lot of time today with Baby James. He is a bit more alert today than he has been. He is still super sleepy because of the seizure medicine, but he is starting to open his eyes quite a lot more. The nurse says that he really wakes up right before feeding time. It is the most wonderful thing to hold him and look at him. He sleeps with his hands above his head. He sleeps in a sprawled out position and looks like he is just hanging out. Please continue to pray for Baby James. Although there has been no new bad news, the Doctors are still quite concerned for him. Please do not stop praying fervently for the Lord to strengthen and heal our little boy. Also, pray for Kristal and I that we might get some more sleep. We have been running silly since we have been here. Kristal especially has not had much opportunity for sleep. Thank you all so much for your continued prayers.

For the sake of reminding you all and for the sake of reminding myself I will say this. God is in control. Robin Mark has a wonderful song and the only words in the song are "Jesus, all for Jesus, all I am, have, and ever hope to be. For It's only in your will that I am free." Short, simple, but extremely biblical. My prayer is obviously that Baby James would be healed and that he be 100% normal in absolutely every aspect of his being. However, I know that God knows much more than I. I know that my perspective is small and distorted by sin. I know that God sees the big picture. I know that God knows how to get what is best for His own name and for His own people better than I do. I pray fervently for the healing and well being of my little boy, but I most fervently pray that the Lord do whatever He deems as best. I can pray most fervently for this because I can, through God's word, be assured that he truly is good. My friends, our God is so good. God's plans are so high above us. He works in such mysterious ways. Only when we get to heaven will we realize how ill informed our praying was. Only when we get to heaven will we see how much more wonderful it is when we ask God to do what he deems best, rather than demanding God to do what we deem as best. Trust Him, Lean on Him, embrace your weakness and ignorance and look to Him for all things. I am in no way saying that we should not make our requests known to God. I am saying that we should understand that our requests flow from the heart, mind, and mouth of a limited perspective. Make your requests known to God but find your greatest comfort at the end of your prayers when you say, "may your will be done." When you say "may your will be done," you are in essence saying, "I so desire so and so, but I understand that my desires (although good) may not be as good as what you have in store."

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

What a beautiful family...and one sweet, blessed, prayed for little angel.

We love you guys!
The Matheis' (Denton, Jessie, Gabbie and Emmie)